Changes by David Bowie. One of the many, many songs I love. This last week has been all about preparing for changes. We are moving house, our daughter has almost finished reception class & is talking a lot about moving into "the years" as she calls it. Our son has had a 'stay & play' session at nursery ready for when he officially starts in September & decided that he will start drawing for purpose & begin potty training. These are all good changes but typical to life they are all happening at the same time.
The sun has decided to shine & even our caterpillars have decided today is the day they will turn into chrysalis.
As with the ups, there are often the downs (which reminds me of another song from Disney's Robin Hood cartoon). The hardest change we are bracing ourselves for is the inevitable with Grandad & his battle with terminal cancer. The dreaded 'C' word that scares everyone.
There are many different support communities for people diagnosed with cancer & their families. If this is something you are going through, I wish you well & I highly recommend you find out about the support groups near you. I can't praise the McMillan team in our area enough.
http://www.macmillan.org.uk/
By now, the Me of a few years ago would be curled up on the sofa crying, feeling ill & praying for someone to come along with a crystal ball & tell me everything is going to be alright. (Cue another of my favourite songs from growing up - Alright by E:17).
The Me now is living in the moment & I'm really proud of myself for how I am managing everything. I am in control of what I am feeling & in situations that have had me feeling the pangs of anxiety starting to rear its ugly head I have taken a moment, assessed what I am feeling, put it into perspective or into my 'come back to it later' file & carried on with what I am doing. I go to singing classes & one of the songs we have covered recently was Cabaret by Liza Minnelli. I often sing this song to myself now especially when I need a kick up the bum. There's one particular line which is becoming my new motto but due to copyrights I can't tell you which line it is!
There have been 2 EUREKA moments this week where I realised how far I have come in recent years.
The first was last Wednesday. After a major bank messing us around with our mortgage application, the joys of moving home, we decided to meet with a mortgage advisor. It was a long meeting of filling in forms & talking about insurances. Like most of the people out there, we have our life insurances etc but upon closer inspection they're not as good as we had thought so we discussed new ones. Going through the forms....my goodness!! Have you got any illnesses. diseases etc etc. Is there a history of this, that or the other in your family along with the discussion about the 'what if's' of life. I came out of the meeting feeling drained but I realised I wasn't scared of what the future would hold & I wasn't scared that by discussing all these things that I was tempting fate. I actually felt settled that if, IF anything was to happen, my family would be taken care of & we would still have a roof over our heads.
Excited...new mortgage sorted & we're still all systems go for moving (another song - Our house by Madness).
The second moment was on Tuesday this week. We enjoyed our daughter's first sports day. From there I took Grandad to an appointment with a palliative care doctor & then went home & played with our son. Why was this day a eureka moment? At the end of the day I realized that for everything I had done that day I had been completely in the moment. My mind had NOT wandered elsewhere or had random thoughts about the usual things my anxiety side would tend towards. I had not spent time looking at other people & asking myself 'why can't I be more like them?' & 'why are they able to enjoy what they're doing & I can't relax properly?' The truth of the matter is I can do those things & be the person I want to be IF I take time to check in with myself each day. (Man in the mirror by Michael Jakson)
Another truth of the matter is that EVERYONE has random thoughts of one kind or another & EVERYONE has times when they are not completely in the moment as it would seem.
So I am now no longer look at others & assuming they are enjoying life any more or any less than I am. I am trying to just be!
Free & in the moment.
Let there be me!
Hi. I'm Hazel. I'm a full-time mum....yawn!! That sounds boring but life is far from that! Entertaining, blessed and varied if I remember to be mindful each day. This is what I'm hoping writing this blog will help me achieve. A mindful approach to life.
Friday 3 July 2015
Tuesday 23 June 2015
Mind the children!
There have been many thoughts in my head this week about what I might write. The thing that has come up the most is our children. Not just the two little people in our home but all our children. As a society we seem to be rushing from one place to another, from one job or activity & then on to the next with not much time in between for general pleasantries all the while expetcing our darlings to keep up.
We expect a lot more from our children now than was expected 20 years ago & definitely more than generations before. Children were expected to be children, out having fun when not learning at school. Some children may have had extra curricular activities but they were not seen as an absolute necessity. They certainly would not have been privy to what was going on in the world of grown ups. If we wish to treat our young ones as being capable of understanding so much more than people ever thought (which they are able to. No more of this seen & not heard business!) then we need to teach them how to handle themselves in all situations & prepare the for the stresses that modern life gives us.
Why am I rambling about this? There have been articles on social media & in the press about teaching children MINDFULNESS this week. One of my favourite actresses, Goldie Hawn, has her own organisation, 'MindUP', which promotes the art of being mindful in schools & the importance of teaching this skill to all pupils. She works with neuroscientists, psychologists & the education sector to develop her program. I have found myself reading more & more about what this organisation does. I would recommend popping over to the website & having a look.
http://thehawnfoundation.co.uk/
I generally people watch. It is quite interesting & you certainly can't help over hearing what people say either around children or directly to them, especially on the school run. Occasionally you over hear parents talking at their children rather than to them, not fully listening & understanding what is being conveyed or taking time to give proper replies. I won't give specific examples & I'm sure many of you will have witnessed the type of scenario I'm dancing around here. From my own world I can tell you that both of my two have had melt down moments over things we would think ridiculous. Cue list of melt downs this week:
Not having 2 stories at bed time,
Not having the right cuddly toy in bed,
Balloons deflating,
Having to come in from playing outside,
Not sharing with each other,
Not wanting a bath,
Not wanting to get out of the bath,
Not being able to take a toy to school,
Puzzle pieces not fitting together,
Wanting help with an activity,
Not happy with the help given during said activity.
I could go on.
As a mum, these kinds of meltdowns individually aren't very much but when you have several a day, especially when you have many other things going on at once in your own mind, things can easily escalate & become a battle of wills. If you take a step back & think about things for a moment from the child's perspective, these things are a big deal to them. It takes a long time for them to learn the skills of considering others & looking at situations differently. Children are very self important. It is their way. We have to teach them to stop & think about what is going on & give them reasonable explanations as calmly as we can.
My daughter is 5 & quite a clever little button for her age. I have to remember that she has a lot of changes going on at the moment. She will be moving up to year 1 in a couple of months & is asking lots of questions about it. She will be performing in a little show with the performing arts school she attends for ukulele lessons so she is practising for that.
I've missed a few more bedtimes with the children than usual as my grandad is poorly with the dreaded C. My girl knows her Great Grandad is unwell but not the severity.
There has also been talk recently, but only little snippets about how she feels other children at school are sometimes "rude" to her.
Not surprisingly she is tired, having bad dreams & lets off steam by over reacting to things we ask of her & getting a little snappy. Hurrah!! My daughter is human!! Don't we all react that way if something is important to us?
Initial reaction is to tell her off. How dare she talk to us that way. She's 5!! However, with the art of being mindful I will stop myself form retaliating in such a way & remind myself of how I feel with everything going on. I then ask my girl to stop & breathe. I ask her to calm down & talk to me properly. She had on one occasion got herself in quite a pickle so I asked her to go upstairs & lay on her bed, breathe & calm down. I explained this was not time out but just time for her to think about what is going on so we could talk properly after.
I did laugh when I could hear her moaning to herself. I couldn't help but sneak up the stairs to hear what she was saying/ there she was, laying on her bed like a teenager would, on her stomach, chin resting on her hands & swinging her legs muttering "It's not fair, why is SHE telling me off when it's not even my fault!"
After a few minutes of her eventually being quiet & looking restful I went into her room & we had a heart to heart. I gave her opportunity to tell me why she was feeling the way she was that made her react in such a way before I spoke to her about appropriate responses & thinking about what she is saying before she says it. I certainly did not excuse her behaviour but I addressed it in a 'what could be done next time?' way.
I spoke to a couple of people about the situation & how I handled it. They suggested that I didn't handle it right & that I was treating my daughter as though she was a lot older. My reply......
What better time to teach your children to think about what is gong on in a situation & the importance of taking a moment to consider what is being said & why before responding? It is a life skill & one I wish I had learnt before turning 35! I also want my children to know that they are valued & what is important to them is important to us.
There are many good websites, blogs & articles about teaching mindfulness to children which you can find if you do a quick Internet search. A couple I like are:
http://www.teachchildrenmeditation.com/
http://www.telegraph.co.uk/lifestyle/wellbeing/10694775/Why-does-the-Government-want-to-teach-mindfulness-in-schools.html
I don't want to bubble wrap my children from the world but I want to protect them where I can & prepare them to deal with those I cannot keep them from all the while giving them every chance to just be children!
We expect a lot more from our children now than was expected 20 years ago & definitely more than generations before. Children were expected to be children, out having fun when not learning at school. Some children may have had extra curricular activities but they were not seen as an absolute necessity. They certainly would not have been privy to what was going on in the world of grown ups. If we wish to treat our young ones as being capable of understanding so much more than people ever thought (which they are able to. No more of this seen & not heard business!) then we need to teach them how to handle themselves in all situations & prepare the for the stresses that modern life gives us.
Why am I rambling about this? There have been articles on social media & in the press about teaching children MINDFULNESS this week. One of my favourite actresses, Goldie Hawn, has her own organisation, 'MindUP', which promotes the art of being mindful in schools & the importance of teaching this skill to all pupils. She works with neuroscientists, psychologists & the education sector to develop her program. I have found myself reading more & more about what this organisation does. I would recommend popping over to the website & having a look.
http://thehawnfoundation.co.uk/
I generally people watch. It is quite interesting & you certainly can't help over hearing what people say either around children or directly to them, especially on the school run. Occasionally you over hear parents talking at their children rather than to them, not fully listening & understanding what is being conveyed or taking time to give proper replies. I won't give specific examples & I'm sure many of you will have witnessed the type of scenario I'm dancing around here. From my own world I can tell you that both of my two have had melt down moments over things we would think ridiculous. Cue list of melt downs this week:
Not having 2 stories at bed time,
Not having the right cuddly toy in bed,
Balloons deflating,
Having to come in from playing outside,
Not sharing with each other,
Not wanting a bath,
Not wanting to get out of the bath,
Not being able to take a toy to school,
Puzzle pieces not fitting together,
Wanting help with an activity,
Not happy with the help given during said activity.
I could go on.
As a mum, these kinds of meltdowns individually aren't very much but when you have several a day, especially when you have many other things going on at once in your own mind, things can easily escalate & become a battle of wills. If you take a step back & think about things for a moment from the child's perspective, these things are a big deal to them. It takes a long time for them to learn the skills of considering others & looking at situations differently. Children are very self important. It is their way. We have to teach them to stop & think about what is going on & give them reasonable explanations as calmly as we can.
My daughter is 5 & quite a clever little button for her age. I have to remember that she has a lot of changes going on at the moment. She will be moving up to year 1 in a couple of months & is asking lots of questions about it. She will be performing in a little show with the performing arts school she attends for ukulele lessons so she is practising for that.
I've missed a few more bedtimes with the children than usual as my grandad is poorly with the dreaded C. My girl knows her Great Grandad is unwell but not the severity.
There has also been talk recently, but only little snippets about how she feels other children at school are sometimes "rude" to her.
Not surprisingly she is tired, having bad dreams & lets off steam by over reacting to things we ask of her & getting a little snappy. Hurrah!! My daughter is human!! Don't we all react that way if something is important to us?
Initial reaction is to tell her off. How dare she talk to us that way. She's 5!! However, with the art of being mindful I will stop myself form retaliating in such a way & remind myself of how I feel with everything going on. I then ask my girl to stop & breathe. I ask her to calm down & talk to me properly. She had on one occasion got herself in quite a pickle so I asked her to go upstairs & lay on her bed, breathe & calm down. I explained this was not time out but just time for her to think about what is going on so we could talk properly after.
I did laugh when I could hear her moaning to herself. I couldn't help but sneak up the stairs to hear what she was saying/ there she was, laying on her bed like a teenager would, on her stomach, chin resting on her hands & swinging her legs muttering "It's not fair, why is SHE telling me off when it's not even my fault!"
After a few minutes of her eventually being quiet & looking restful I went into her room & we had a heart to heart. I gave her opportunity to tell me why she was feeling the way she was that made her react in such a way before I spoke to her about appropriate responses & thinking about what she is saying before she says it. I certainly did not excuse her behaviour but I addressed it in a 'what could be done next time?' way.
I spoke to a couple of people about the situation & how I handled it. They suggested that I didn't handle it right & that I was treating my daughter as though she was a lot older. My reply......
What better time to teach your children to think about what is gong on in a situation & the importance of taking a moment to consider what is being said & why before responding? It is a life skill & one I wish I had learnt before turning 35! I also want my children to know that they are valued & what is important to them is important to us.
There are many good websites, blogs & articles about teaching mindfulness to children which you can find if you do a quick Internet search. A couple I like are:
http://www.teachchildrenmeditation.com/
http://www.telegraph.co.uk/lifestyle/wellbeing/10694775/Why-does-the-Government-want-to-teach-mindfulness-in-schools.html
I don't want to bubble wrap my children from the world but I want to protect them where I can & prepare them to deal with those I cannot keep them from all the while giving them every chance to just be children!
Monday 15 June 2015
To blog or not to blog? Why now?
I have been procrastinating a lot (almost 3 years worth of procrastinating to be realistic), about starting a blog. What could I say that would be of interest or consequence to anyone?
Well, I've decided now is the time that I took interest & listened to myself. Like many people I am good at giving advice & being there for others. Maybe I'll read what I have to say & finally start listening to myself!? A bit of self therapy.
Wouldn't life be great if we all trusted ourselves, our advice & more importantly, become mindful about our here & now?
Mindful. It's with a lot of thanks & love to one of my gorgeous cousins that I use the practice of being mindful on a daily basis. (CBT had a part to play in this too). I'm sure this subject will come up often. The link should take you to a good website about mindfulness. It has some lovely inspirational quotes as well as explaining what being mindful is all about & how to practice techniques in your everyday lives.
http://mindfulness-inner-peace.info/
What will I blog about exactly? I would love to say I have a specific subject but my creative mind does like to ramble so, each time I write it shall probably end up being a 'dear diary' approach with my own take on life in my world with my beautiful, crazy, entertaining family.
I hereby swear to tell the whole truth. LET THERE BE ME! If anyone out there reads this, thank you for braving my ramblings! X
Wouldn't life be great if we all trusted ourselves, our advice & more importantly, become mindful about our here & now?
Mindful. It's with a lot of thanks & love to one of my gorgeous cousins that I use the practice of being mindful on a daily basis. (CBT had a part to play in this too). I'm sure this subject will come up often. The link should take you to a good website about mindfulness. It has some lovely inspirational quotes as well as explaining what being mindful is all about & how to practice techniques in your everyday lives.
http://mindfulness-inner-peace.info/
What will I blog about exactly? I would love to say I have a specific subject but my creative mind does like to ramble so, each time I write it shall probably end up being a 'dear diary' approach with my own take on life in my world with my beautiful, crazy, entertaining family.
I hereby swear to tell the whole truth. LET THERE BE ME! If anyone out there reads this, thank you for braving my ramblings! X
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